Not What I Planned
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My life isn't turning out the way I had always planned. I hadn't planned on falling in love with a guy in the military. I had planned on falling in love with a hometown guy who was just an average person that I would wake up to every morning, but instead I have fallin' in love with a navy boy who lives on a ship on the coast line somewhere. I don't wake up to him every morning, I just wait for the next phone call to come through, for the next letter or email to arrive, and then I just wait. I wait for the day he will come home to me. I wait to be in his arms again. Its been so long since I've felt his touch I'm not sure how it feels anymore. I never planned on having to wait and wonder when I would get that next kiss or hear the next "I love you baby!" I had planned on getting that kiss and hearing "I love you baby!" every night. I have learned to cherish everyday we spend together as it was our last and I cherish every sweet kiss we share more than most do. I've learned to make everyday count cause you never know when it could be your last. I make every phone call the best it can be and hold to everything he say's so i can get through until the next phone call. When you live in the military world you never know what to expect you just live day by day. When your a sailors girl your world turns into a navy world. You don't plan on anything cause things can change in a blink of an eye. You just go with what your sailor say's. The weird thing is that, all those years i spent planning how I wanted my life to be, but my life is nothing like I had planned and I wouldn't change a thing. I love my sailor and will continue to wait for him to come home. |